Caroline Flack's family have released an unpublished Instagram post she wrote before she died.
Flack took her own life at aged 40 at her London flat on Saturday one day after Valentine's Day and just three weeks ahead of her trial.
The former Love Island host had been charged with assault by beating after an early-morning altercation with her boyfriend Lewis Burton.
After her death, Caroline has been able to have her final say in an unseen Instagram post shared by her family with the Eastern Daily Press ahead of her inquest on Wednesday.
In her own words, the presenter insisted she was not a domestic abuser and she said she was taking responsibility for the "accident" that night.
Caroline explained it was her own blood on the bed which emerged in a picture of her bedroom following the row.
In the sad message, the telly host confessed her world collapsed with 24 hours of her arrest in mid-December which saw her charged with common assault.
As a result of her arrest, the Strictly Come Dancing star lost her multi-million pound job on Love Island and her plush home.
Caroline gave a searingly honest admission of her mental health struggles for more than 10 years while she was in the limelight.
In full her post read: "For a lot of people, being arrested for common assault is an extreme way to have some sort of spiritual awakening but for me it's become the normal.
"I've been pressing the snooze button on many stresses in my life – for my whole life. I've accepted shame and toxic opinions on my life for over 10 years and yet told myself it's all part of my job. No complaining.
"The problem with brushing things under the carpet is …. they are still there and one day someone is going to lift that carpet up and all you are going to feel is shame and embarrassment.
"On December the 12th 2019 I was arrested for common assault on my boyfriend …Within 24 hours my whole world and future was swept from under my feet and all the walls that I had taken so long to build around me, collapsed. I am suddenly on a different kind of stage and everyone is watching it happen.
"I have always taken responsibility for what happened that night. Even on the night. But the truth is …. It was an accident.
"I've been having some sort of emotional breakdown for a very long time.
"But I am NOT a domestic abuser. We had an argument and an accident happened. An accident. The blood that someone SOLD to a newspaper was MY blood and that was something very sad and very personal.
"The reason I am talking today is because my family can't take anymore. I've lost my job. My home. My ability to speak. And the truth has been taken out of my hands and used as entertainment.
"I can't spend every day hidden away being told not to say or speak to anyone.
"I'm so sorry to my family for what I have brought upon them and for what my friends have had to go through.
"I'm not thinking about 'how I'm going to get my career back.' I'm thinking about how I'm going to get mine and my family's life back.
"I can't say anymore than that."
Before her death, Caroline had broken her silence on Instagram to vow she was going to release the truth.
The television host had written the post and sent it to her mum Chris at the end of January.
But her advisors told her not to post the lengthy Instagram so it remained under wraps until now.
It was her mum Chris who decided to share Caroline's final words with the Eastern Daily Press ahead of the troubled star's inquest.
In her first interview since her daughter's death, Chris said she wanted to make Caroline's voice heard against "such injustice".
Her mother thanked her friends Molly, Lou, Sam, Liam and Simon for trying to keep her daughter safe in her darkest hours.
She said: "Carrie sent me this message at the end of January but was told not to post it by advisers but she so wanted to have her little voice heard.
"So many untruths were out there but this is how she felt and my family and I would like people to read her own words.
"Carrie was surrounded by love and friends but this was just too much for her."
Flack pleaded not guilty and her sports coach boyfriend always maintained her innocence.
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