Lauren Goodger has opened up about the similarities between her one-year-old daughter Larose and newborn Lorena who tragically died just after being born.
The TOWIE star has recalled how Lorena reminded her of Larose, with the siblings sharing the same hair colour and eyes, and petite features.
Speaking to OK!, Lauren said: “She was just perfect. She was very, very much like Larose. She had beautiful black hair and blue eyes. She had big lips, a tiny little nose and a lovely skin tone. She looked like a really healthy and solid baby.
“She just looked so perfect and beautiful and I couldn’t stop taking photos of her. I’ve got all the photos on my phone and I can’t stop looking at them.”
The past fortnight has been a living nightmare for Lauren and she would be entitled to feel angry. But she doesn’t – she just feels numb.
Her “perfect” baby daughter with Charles Drury, 25, was born on Friday 8 July at 5.26pm, weighing 9lb. With the knotted umbilical cord around her neck, doctors fought to save her, but their efforts were in vain and she could not be resuscitated.
When Lorena died, Lauren was able to spend 24 hours with her in a special room at the hospital.
“I’ve shown Larose pictures of Lorena and I tell her, ‘This is your little sister.’ Larose will know all about her when she is older.”
During the day Lauren said she wants to “put on a brave face” for her older daughter Larose, who turned one this week, but the pain and feelings of unbearable longing are impossible to suppress at night.
“When I get into bed in the evening, I just want Lorena there next to me,” she says. “I feel like I can keep strong in the day for Larose, but at night, that’s when it just hits me. That’s when I feel really, really sad and I miss her so much.”
“Lorena has a teddy with her now and I’ve got a matching one, which I keep with me. When I say my final goodbye to her, I’m going to swap them over. I’m going to have the one she’s had, and she will have the one I’ve had.”
Lauren announced the loss of her baby on Instagram writing: 'Lorena. 08.07.22. She was the most beautiful healthy baby I've ever seen just like her sister… words can't describe as a mother losing your baby that I carried for all these months perfectly and gave birth too for my angel to be taken from me.
Lauren's partner Charles also shared a statement paying tribute to his daughter, writing on Instagram: 'Your little heart will forever beat inside mine.'
For anyone affected by Lauren’s story, you can seek support and advice from tommys.org and petalscharity.org
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