An incontinent university student wears nappies 24 hours a day and lives half of her life as a three-year-old baby to escape the pressures of being an adult.
21-year-old Camille Lola, who is a transgender woman, couldn’t keep food down as a child without having diarrhoea, which led to accidents throughout high school.
Camille, from Switzerland, would feel isolated with no friends due to her condition, so when she hit puberty she decided to relive her childhood through ‘little life’, a community for adult baby diaper lovers.
She would spend each night in her home living as a three-year-old baby, complete with a dummy and nappy.
As she experienced a lonely childhood, she wanted to ‘correct’ her life by re-living her younger years. While her close friends and family have accepted her hobby, her extended family have called her crazy and said that she needs to stop.
When Camille was 18 years old, she started to identify as female after initially thinking she was bisexual and gender fluid. A year later she asked her friends to call her Camille and treat her like a girl. She has since undergone hormone treatments and plans to get surgery next year to fully transition to female.
‘I got into this community for a sad reason; when I was a kid, I wasn’t able to eat a lot of food because it was giving me diarrhoea,’ Camille said.
‘During my childhood, I had a lot of accidents at school, on holiday, with my family and I didn’t have many friends because of this.
‘When I hit puberty, I became more interested in re-living my childhood, wearing nappies, playing with toys and so on.
‘I just wanted to have a better childhood; I wanted to correct my life and just live a good and peaceful life. We forget about our adult problems and just live in the present moment.
‘Some of us wear nappies for pleasure or for medical reasons. Some of us wear the nappies purely for the sensation and how it feels, while some of us don’t wear nappies at all and just act like a child.
‘I like to switch from being an adult to a baby, but I much prefer the “little” role. I’m a shy baby and I don’t talk a lot, but I laugh all the time when I’m in a really deep baby mood.
‘I play with my toys or watch cartoons, maybe I’ll need help to eat and I let the adult check and change my nappy. But every day is different.
‘I never show strangers or normal people my baby outfit. I can totally go out with overalls, but I will never show my pacifier or my nappies in public.
‘I prefer to be in my outfit only in front of other people in the ABDL community, as they are the only ones who think it’s cute.
‘Once I was in a shop with a friend like me and the salesperson asked us if we were going to an 80s party – that was funny.
‘My friends who know about my hobby just think it’s cute and kind of fun and except my parents who completely understand why I do this and let me do it in private, the rest of my family who know said that I was crazy and that I need to stop.
‘It’s been over ten months since I’ve been incontinent, so I wear nappies all the time; all day, twenty-four hours a day.
‘Normally, I wear only two nappies a day, one during the day and one at night, but I could wear up to three sometimes if I drink a lot.’
Camille has spent over £600 on her adult baby accessories.
She began questioning her gender when she was 18, and finally came to identify as female.
Despite worrying about what people would think when she came out as transgender, her mum and friends supported her through it.
‘I started to have questions around my gender when I was eighteen. At first, I thought I was bisexual and gender fluid; I thought I wanted to live as a boy and girl,’ she said.
‘But at my nineteenth birthday, I asked my friends to call me Camille and treat me like a girl – it felt so good. That’s when I realised, I wanted to transition to female.
‘I slowly started to announce who I am and then came out officially on Facebook, but I told my mum in real life before; she was surprised but she understands.
‘For the moment, I only take female hormonal treatments but maybe in the next year or so, I will have complete surgery.
‘If someone is curious or interested about the little community, I will talk to people about it. We are very open.
‘Even if it’s just curiosity, we are happy to explain how it works and why we do this and you can easily find people of the community on Instagram, Facebook and Twitter.’
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